This
week has gone by so FAST!! I only have 3
weeks left in the MTC! Then I'm in
CHINA!! We have a new Cantonese District
coming in this week and a whole Mandarin District leaving, so that’s sad. But
we're excited to meet this new group of missionaries that will be speaking
Cantonese!
I
don't know why, but this week the story of the Prodigal Son has been on my mind
a lot. It was also brought up in many
lessons throughout the week. We focused a lot on repentance this week in
classes and devotionals. It was really humbling. I watching an amazing
devotional Elder Bednar gave called “One
by One.”
It
is such a tender mercy that the Lord knows each of us One by One. I think the
reason God kept reminding me of the Prodigal Son throughout the week was to
prepare me for this devotional by Elder Bednar. First I want to review the
story with you:
Luke 15: 11-24
11 And he said, A certain
man had two sons:
12 And the younger of them
said to his father, Father, give me the portion of goods that falleth to me.
And he divided unto them his living.
13 And not many days after
the younger son gathered all together, and took his journey into a far country,
and there wasted his substance with riotous living.
14 And when he had spent
all, there arose a mighty famine in that land; and he began to be in want.
15 And he went and joined
himself to a citizen of that country; and he sent him into his fields to feed
swine.
16 And he would fain have
filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto
him.
17 And when he came to
himself, he said, How many hired servants of my father’s have bread enough and
to spare, and I perish with hunger!
18 I will arise and go to my
father, and will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before
thee,
19 And am no more worthy to
be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants.
20 And he arose, and came to
his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had
compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.
21 And the son said unto
him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more
worthy to be called thy son.
22 But the father said to
his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on
his hand, and shoes on his feet:
23 And bring hither the
fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry:
24 For this my son was dead,
and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.
This
story is about a one. Just one person. The Prodigal Son repenting and coming
unto Christ. It says that heaven rejoiced for the one soul that repented and
came unto Christ.
This
week as I've thought a lot about repentance, a very personal story has hit me
hard that I want to share. I didn’t think It would be something I would ever
share with a lot of people, but it’s very close to my heart and It changed the
way I view repentance.
So
the day before I went into the temple I had a really humbling experience with
one of my very close friends, Ashlynn. I
was sitting in my bed and she was sitting across from me in her bed. All of the sudden this dark heavy 'low of all lows'
feeling overcame me. I started to cry. I told Ash that I wasn’t sure I was
worthy to go into the temple. As memories and feelings of mistakes I had made
and times I had fallen short washed over me, I cried harder and harder. Ash
just sat there and held me. Then she promised me that everything was going to
be okay.
That
next day when I entered the temple, these feelings of guilt and inadequacy
would leave me, But in that moment I
couldn’t let go and forgive myself. I
couldn’t seem to escape the darkness and despair I was feeling. Lovingly Ash just sat there, comforting me
and confirming that I was worth. I had
utilized the gift of repentance many times in my life, and it was time to let
go, just as Christ promises, "I will remember your sins no more." So finally
I went to bed.
When
I entered the temple the next day that familiar spirit of the temple, that I
love and had felt before, overcame me. But I was still doubting. Then I went
into initiatory. You are promised and blessed with many amazing things during
initiatory. I remember walking out of my initiatory knowing with all surety
that God had forgiven me and there was no reason to hold on to anything I had
already repented of.
Repentance
and forgiveness are incredible gifts given to us as the ultimate expression of
love from our Savior and Heavenly Father.
There is so much power in these two principles, more than I think we can
ever comprehend in this life! I know
without a shadow of a doubt it is a real power. I am so anxious to get the Hong
Kong and have the opportunity to invite people to repent! It is one of the GREATEST gifts God gives
us.
I'm
so grateful to be serving a mission. I know it's where I need to be. I love
this gospel and its simplicity. I love
the blessing we are promised if we keep our promises with God. I love the example of Jesus Christ that we
are so blessed to look up to. I pray that each of you will kneel down this week
and offer a prayer of thanks to God for knowing each of us one by one and
giving us the opportunity to return to Him one by one. He loves us more than we
will ever comprehend!
Ngoh
gom gong, yeh sou gei duk ge mihng, A-muhn (:
(One
other quick cool experience and challenge if you're interested . . . I was
challenged at the beginning of the week to pray to God and ask him what he
wants me to pray about and ask for in my prayers. He knows you better than anyone and He knows
what we need. So if you pray and ask for Him to tell you what you need, He WILL
and you will receive blessing as you pray to know His will. It has changed my week! )
Love
you all!!
Love
Sister Webb
***This
is Julie . . . I had an incredible exchange of text messages with Sister
Tuttle, Amanda's Branch President's wife, on Sunday. She sent the pictures below. We both agreed that she was there at
precisely the moment Amanda needed her the most . . . that Sunday afternoon,
February 5th, when Amanda needed someone to listen, hug her, and just be there
for her. I affectionately call her
Amanda's MTC MOM***
This is picture of them on a walk to the temple Sunday, February 5th. Sister Tuttle said, "I really love Amanda. I feel certain that God gave us this moment in time together." |
Amanda's Zone |
Me trying to memorize The First Vision in Canto! |
Nightime . . . |
. . . and the Sisters |